breathing is fun... sometimes

wow, its been a long ass time since i last posted. yeah, you could say im a slacker, but im damn good at it!!! lotsa stuff has happened since my last post. things are going VERY well with steph and i. im sooo happy in this relationship, good stuff. im still living in this godawful house. i should prolly elaborate on that. so back in feb 2004 i moved out of my apartment and into this jank ass little house in capitola village. pros: nice neighborhood, great location (right IN capitola village, literally a 6 minute walk to the beach), HUGE backyard, though it is shared with 2 other houses, but the people that live there are rarely out in the yard. its also right on a river directly across from a 4-star restraunt. cons: hard to heat the house evenly, the house itself is VERY old (built in 1920's), nig ant problem, upstairs shower leaks into both the garage below but also my bedroom right next to it. other than that ive been mostly just chillin. working a lot as always. though i did get to take vacation last month and i went and saw steph for a week. that was an eye opener (in a good way). enjoyed my time mt biking at oroville dam and hiking at bald rock

thats kinda funny... this is my second update since i got dsl... anyways... thought this was interesting...

North Korea has described US President George W Bush as an "imbecile" and a "tyrant that puts Hitler in the shade".

A Foreign Ministry spokesman was responding to comments President Bush made last week in which he described the North's Kim Jong-il as a "tyrant".
The spokesman also reiterated that North Korea will not attend a working meeting ahead of the next round of six-party talks on its nuclear programme.
The working group is due to meet later this month in New York.
President Bush explained in a speech in Hudson, Wisconsin, last Wednesday, his decision to ask other countries in the region to help him persuade the North to disarm.
"I felt it was important to bring other countries into the mix, like China and Japan and South Korea and Russia, so there's now five countries saying to the tyrant in North Korea, disarm, disarm," he said.
A North Korean Foreign Ministry spokesman, in comments carried by state news agency KCNA, responded: "This clearly proves that the DPRK [North Korea] was right when it commented that he is a political imbecile bereft of even elementary morality.....
"Bush is a tyrant that puts Hitler into the shade and his group of such tyrants is a typical gang of political gangsters," he said.
North Korea reiterated comments it made last week that it could not now take part in working-level talks ahead of six-party discussions on its nuclear programme scheduled to take place by the end of September.
The spokesman said this was because "the US has become more undisguised in pursuing its hostile policy towards the DPRK, backtracking from all agreements and common understanding reached at the third round of the six-party talks" [held in June].
Talks impasse
At those latest talks, the US proposed North Korea freeze its nuclear programme as a step towards eventual dismantlement and consequent economic rewards.
But Pyongyang has questioned the timeframe, and also continues to deny US claims that it has a second enriched uranium weapons programme.
The Foreign Ministry spokesman said on Monday that instead North Korea would boost a "thousand times" its capacity for self-defence.
The nuclear dispute flared up in 2002, when US officials accused North Korea of running a secret nuclear programme in violation of international agreements.
Since then there have been a series of talks in an effort to resolve the crisis, but a deal has yet to be reached.
...per BBC>> http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/default.stm

:( i was hoping for something a little more evil, oh well

wow, i cannot believe this happened. its insane----->>> drunk driving=stupidity.

watched fahrenheit 9/11 last night. GREAT movie! everyone should see it, michael moore did a great job of presenting the facts, as well as his opinion. the movie was very thought provoking, moving, and saddening. and on that note, you should read this!!!>>>

from AMUSING OURSELVES TO DEATH by Neil Postman

Foreword

We were keeping our eye on 1984. When the year came and the prophecy didn't, thoughtful Americans sang softly in praise of themselves. The roots of liberal democracy had held. Wherever else the terror had happened, we, at least, had not been visited by Orwellian nightmares.

But we had forgotten that alongside Orwell's dark vision, there was another-slightly older, slightly less well known, equally chilling: Aldous Huxley's Brave New World. Contrary to common belief even among the educated, Huxley and Orwell did not prophesy the same thing. Orwell warns that we will be overcome by an externally imposed oppression. But in Huxley's vision, no Big Brother is required to deprive people of their autonomy, maturity arid history. As he saw it, people will come to love their oppression, to adore the technologies that undo their capacities to think.

What Orwell feared were those who would ban books. What Huxley feared was that there would be no reason to ban a book, for there would be no one who wanted to read one. Orwell feared those who would deprive us of information. Huxley feared those who would give us so much that we would be reduced to passivity and egoism. Orwell feared that the truth would be concealed from us. Huxley feared the truth would be drowned in a sea of irrelevance. Or-well feared we would become a captive culture. Huxley feared we would become a trivial culture, preoccupied with some equivalent of the feelies ([Huxley's sense stimulating movies], the orgy porgy [group sex in the novel], and the centrifugal bumblepuppy* [a child's game in the novel; see description at end of essay]. As Huxley remarked in Brave New World Revisited, the civil libertarians and rationalists who are ever on the alert to oppose tyranny "failed to take into account man's almost infinite appetite for distractions." In 1984, Huxley added, people arc controlled by inflicting pain, In Brave New World, they are controlled by inflicting pleasure. In short, Orwell feared that what we hate will ruin us. Huxley feared that what we love will ruin us.


This book is about the possibility that Huxley, not Orwell, was right.


The Huxleyan Warning


There are two ways by which the spirit of a culture may be shriveled. In the first - the Orwellian - culture becomes a prison. In the second - the Huxleyan - culture becomes a burlesque.

No one needs to be reminded that our world is now marred by many prison-cultures whose structure Orwell described accurately in his parables. If one were to read both 1984 and Animal Farm, and then for good measure, Arthur Koestler's Darkness at Noon, one would have a fairly precise blueprint of the machinery of thought-control as it currently operates in scores of countries and on millions of people. Of course, Orwell was not the first to teach us about the spiritual devastations of tyranny. What is irreplaceable about his work is his insistence that it makes little difference if our wardens are inspired by right- or left-wing ideologies. The gates of the prison are equally impenetrable, surveillance equally rigorous, icon worship equally pervasive.


What Huxley teaches is that in the age of advanced technology, spiritual devastation is more likely to come from an enemy with a smiling face than from one whose countenance exudes suspicion and hate. In the Huxleyan prophecy, Big Brother does not watch us, by his choice. We watch him, by ours. There is no need for wardens or gates or Ministries of Truth. When a population becomes distracted by trivia, when cultural life is redefined as a perpetual round of entertainments, when serious public conversation becomes a form of baby-talk, when, in short, a people become an audience and their public business a vaudeville act, then a nation finds itself at risk; culture-death is a clear possibility.

In America, Orwell's prophecies are of small relevance, but Huxley's are well under way toward being realized. For America is engaged in the world's most ambitious experiment to accommodate itself to the technological distractions made possible by the electric plug. This is an experiment that began slowly and modestly in the mid-nineteenth century and has now, in the latter half of the twentieth, reached a perverse maturity in America's consuming love-affair with television. As nowhere else in the world, Americans have moved far and fast in bringing to a close the age of the slow-moving printed word, and have granted to television sovereignty over all of their institutions. By ushering in the Age of Television, America has given the world the clearest available glimpse of the Huxleyan future.

Those who speak about this matter must often raise their voices to a near-hysterical pitch, inviting the charge that they are everything from wimps to public nuisances to Jeremiahs. But they do so because what they want others to see appears benign, when it is not invisible altogether. An Orwellian world is much easier to recognize, and to oppose, than a Huxleyan. Everything in our background has prepared us to know and resist a prison when the gates begin to close around us. We are not likely, for example, to be indifferent to the voices of the Sakharovs and the Mandelas and the Walesas. We take arms against such a sea of troubles, buttressed by the spirit of Milton, Bacon, Voltaire, Goethe and Jefferson. But what if there are no cries of anguish to be heard? Who is prepared to take arms against a sea of amusements? To whom do we complain, and when, and in what tone of voice, when serious discourse dissolves into giggles? What is the antidote to a culture’s being drained by laughter?

I fear that our philosophers have given us no guidance in this matter. Their warnings have customarily been directed against those consciously formulated ideologies that appeal to the worst tendencies in human nature. But what is happening in America is not the design of an articulated ideology. No Mein Kampf or Communist Manifesto announced its coming. It comes as the unintended consequence of a dramatic change in our modes of public conversation. But it is an ideology nonetheless, for it imposes a way of life, a set of relations among people and ideas, about which there has been no consensus, no discussion and no opposition. Only compliance. Public consciousness has not yet assimilated the point that technology is ideology. This, in spite of the fact that before our very eyes technology has altered every aspect of life in America during the past eighty years. For example, it would have been excusable in 1905 for us to be unprepared for the cultural changes the automobile would bring. Who could have suspected then that the automobile would tell us how we were to conduct our social and sexual lives? Would reorient our ideas about what to do with our forests and cities? Would create new ways of expressing our personal identity and social standing?

But it is much later in the game now, and ignorance of the score is inexcusable. To be unaware that a technology comes equipped with a program for social change, to maintain that technology is neutral, to make the assumption that technology is always a friend to culture is, at this late hour, stupidity plain and simple. Moreover, we have seen enough by now to know that technological changes in our modes of communication are even more ideology-laden than changes in our modes of transportation. Introduce the alphabet to a culture and you change its cognitive habits, its social relations, its notions of community, history and religion. Introduce the printing press with movable type, and you do the same. introduce speed-of-light transmission of images and you make a cultural revolution. Without a vote. Without polemics. Without guerrilla resistance. Here is ideology, pure if not serene. Here is ideology without words, and all the more powerful for their absence. All that is required to make it stick is a population that devoutly believes in the inevitability of progress. And in this sense, all Americans are Marxists, for we believe nothing if not that history is moving us toward some preordained paradise and that technology is the force behind that movement.

Thus, there are near insurmountable difficulties for anyone who has written such a book as this, and who wishes to end it with some remedies for the affliction. In the first place, not everyone believes a cure is needed, and in the second, there probably isn't any. But as a true-blue American who has imbibed the unshakable belief that where there is a problem, there must be a solution, I shall conclude with the following suggestions.

We must, as a start, not delude ourselves with preposterous notions such as the straight Luddite position as outlined, for example, in Jerry Mander's Four Arguments for the Elimination of Television. Americans will not shut down any part of their technological apparatus, and to suggest that they do so is to make no suggestion at all. It is almost equally unrealistic to expect that nontrivial modifications in the availability of media will ever be made. Many civilized nations limit by law the amount of hours television may operate and thereby mitigate the role television plays in public life. But I believe that this is not a possibility in America. Once having opened the Happy Medium to full public view, we are not likely to countenance even its partial closing. Still, some Americans have been thinking along these lines. As I write, a story appears in The New York Times (September 27, 1984) about the plans of the Farmington, Connecticut, Library Council to sponsor a "TV Turnoff." it appears that such an effort was made the previous year, the idea being to get people to stop watching television for one month. The Times reports that the turnoff the previous January was widely noted by the media. Ms. Ellen Babcock, whose family participated, is quoted as saying, "It will be interesting to see if the impact is the same this year as last year, when we had terrific media coverage," In other words, Ms. Babcock hopes that by watching television, people will learn that they ought to stop watching television. It is hard to imagine that Ms. Babcock does not see the irony in this position. it is an irony that I have confronted many times in being told that I must appear on television to promote a book that warns People against television. Such are the contradictions of a television-based culture.

In any case, of how much help is a once-a-month turnoff? It is a mere pittance; that is to say, a penance. How comforting it must be when the folks in Farmington are done with their punishment and can return to their true occupation. Nonetheless, one applauds their effort, as one must applaud the efforts of those who see some relief in limiting certain kinds of content on television-for example excessive violence, commercials on children's shows, etc. I am particularly food of John Lindsay's suggestion that political commercials be banned from television as we now ban cigarette and liquor commercials. I would gladly testify before the Federal Communications Commission as to the manifold merits of this excellent idea. To those who would oppose my testimony by claiming that such a ban is a clear violation of the First Amendment, I would offer a compromise: Require all political commercials to be preceded by a short statement to the effect that common sense has determined that watching political commercials is hazardous to the intellectual health of the community.

I am not very optimistic about anyone's taking this suggestion seriously. Neither do I put much stock in proposals to improve the quality of television programs. Television, as I have implied earlier, serves us most usefully when presenting junk entertainment; it serves us most ill when it co-opts serious modes of discourse-news, politics, science, education, commerce, religion-'and turns them into entertainment packages. We would all be better off if television got worse, not better.


"Friends" and "ER" are no threat to our public health. "60 Minutes," "Eye-Witness News" and "Sesame Street" are.


The problem, in any case, does not reside in what people watch. The problem is in that we watch. The solution must be found in how we watch. For I believe it may fairly be said that we have yet to learn what television is. And the reason is that there has been no worthwhile discussion, let alone widespread public understanding, of what information is and how it gives direction to a culture. There is a certain poignancy in this, since there are no people who more frequently and enthusiastically use such phrases as "the information age," "the information explosion," and "the information society." We have apparently advanced to the point where we have grasped the idea that a change in the forms, volume, speed and context of information means something, but we have not got any further.
What is information? Or more precisely, what are information? What are its various forms? What conceptions of intelligence, wisdom and learning does each form insist upon? What conceptions does each form neglect or mock? What are the main psychic effects of each form? What is the relation between information and reason? What is the kind of information that best facilitates thinking? Is there a moral bias to each information form? What does it mean to say that there is too much information? How would one know? What redefinitions of important cultural meanings do new sources, speeds, contexts and forms of information require? Does television, for example, give a new meaning to "piety," to "patriotism," to "privacy"? Does television give a new meaning to "judgment" or to "understanding"? How do different forms of information persuade? is a newspaper's "public" different from television's "public"? How do different information forms dictate the type of content that is expressed?

These questions, and dozens more like them, are the means through which it might be possible for Americans to begin talking back to their television sets, to use Nicholas Johnson's phrase. For no medium is excessively dangerous if its users understand what its dangers are. it is not important that those who ask the questions arrive at my answers or Marshall McLuhan's (quite different answers, by the way). This is an instance in which the asking of the questions is sufficient. To ask is to break the spell. To which I might add that questions about the psychic, political and social effects of information are as applicable to the computer as to television. Although I believe the computer to be a vastly overrated technology, I mention it here because, clearly, Americans have accorded it their customary mindless inattention; which means they will use it as they are told, without a whimper. Thus, a central thesis of computer technology-that the principal difficulty we have in solving problems stems from insufficient data-will go unexamined. Until, years from now, when it will be noticed that the massive collection and speed-of-light retrieval of data have been of great value to large-scale organizations but have solved very little of importance to most people and have created at least as many problems for them as they may have solved.


In any case, the point I am trying to make is that only through a deep and unfailing awareness of the structure and effects of information, through a demystification of media, is there any hope of our gaining some measure of control over television, or the computer, or any other medium. How is such media consciousness to be achieved? There are only two answers that come to mind, one of which is nonsense and can be dismissed almost at once; the other is desperate but it is all we have.
The nonsensical answer is to create television programs whose intent would be, not to get people to stop watching television but to demonstrate how television ought to be viewed, to show how television recreates and degrades our conception of news, political debate, religious thought, etc. I imagine such demonstrations would of necessity take the form of parodies, along the lines of "Saturday Night Live" and "Monty Python," the idea being to induce a nationwide horse laugh over television's control of public discourse. But, naturally, television would have the last laugh. In order to command an audience large enough to make a difference, one would have to make the programs vastly amusing, in the television style. Thus, the act of criticism itself would, in the end, be co-opted by television. The parodists would become celebrities, would star in movies, and would end up making television commercials.

The desperate answer is to rely on the only mass medium of communication that, in theory, is capable of addressing the problem: our schools. This is the conventional American solution to all dangerous social problems, and is, of course, based on a naive and mystical faith in the efficacy of education. The process rarely works. In the matter at hand, there is even less reason than usual to expect it to. Our schools have not yet even got around to examining the role of the printed word in shaping our culture. Indeed, you will not find two high school seniors in a hundred who could tell you-within a five-hundred-year margin of error-when the alphabet was invented. I suspect most do not even know that the alphabet was invented. I have found that when the question is put to them, they appear puzzled, as if one had asked, When were trees invented, or clouds? It is the very principle of myth, as Roland Barthes pointed out, that it transforms history into nature, and to ask of our schools that they engage in the task of demythologizing media is to ask something the schools have never done.

And yet there is reason to suppose that the situation is not hopeless. Educators are not unaware of the effects of television on their students. Stimulated by the arrival of the computer, they discuss it a great deal-which is to say, they have become somewhat "media conscious." It is true enough that much of their consciousness centers on the question, How can we use television (or the computer, or word processor) to control education? They have not yet got to the question, How can we use education to control television (or the computer, or word processor)? But our reach for solutions ought to exceed our present grasp, or what's our dreaming for? Besides, it is an acknowledged task of the schools to assist the young in learning how to interpret the symbols of their culture. That this task should now

require that they learn how to distance themselves from their forms of information is not so bizarre an enterprise that we cannot hope for its inclusion in the curriculum; even hope that it will be placed at the center of education, What I suggest here as a solution is what Aldous Huxley suggested, as well. And I can do no better than he. He believed with H. G. Wells that we are in a race between education and disaster, and he wrote continuously about the necessity of our understanding the politics and epistemology of media. For in the end, he was trying to tell us that what afflicted the people in Brave New World was not that they were laughing instead of thinking, but that they did not know what they were laughing about and why they had stopped thinking.


*Centrifugal Bumble-puppy is described in the novel: "The Director and his students stood for a short time watching a game of Centrifugal Bumble-puppy. Twenty children were grouped in a circle round a chrome steel tower. A ball thrown up so as to land on the platform at the top of the tower rolled down into the interior, fell on a rapidly revolving disk, was hurled through one or other of the numerous apertures pierced in the cylindrical casing, and had to be caught" (BNW, Chapter 3).

i get to see fahrenheit 9/11 today!!! elyay!!!

you should be informed... click and be learn-ed

a bunch of the santa cruz crew bought our tickets for Fahrenheit 9/11s opening night. i am sooo stoked.

everyone should read this book.... Abuse Your Illusions:The Disinformation Guide to Media Mirages and Establishment Lies. go forth my minions and learn what has befallen you.

so this happened a while ago, but shit happens and im writing it now...

i was driving into sacramento from oroville. im cruising along minding my own business (im in the furthest left lane, 4 lanes of traffic either way) when i start to pass an older volvo. i get about halfway past the volvo when i starts to change into my lane! i hit the horn and he jerks away for a second and then starts merging into my lane again. again on the horn, but he keeps coming over. finally im about 2-3 inches from the concrete wall on my left. so i slam on the brakes and get behind this crazy mofo. as soon as i can i jam past him and hit the brakes, slowing down to about 15mph on the freeway. what i am trying to do here is get him to change lanes and hopefully eventually stop on the side of the freeway, so i can beat the crap out of him (i really was going to)... but he didnt get over. so i dropped back next to him and grabbed a handfull of change out of my car (i have a small bucket of change in my cupholder) and threw it at that bastards car for nearly wrecking my car... there now i have it written down, EL YAY!!!

yay!!! im off of work!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

this is one of those things someone sent me...
..:: :LASTs: ::..

last person u kissed: Steph

last cigarette: about 20 min ago

last good cry: ummm... i dont know

last library book checked out: Get a Financial Life: Personal Finance in Your Twenties and Thirties

last movie seen: new movie: i dont know now that i think of it... old movie: waking life
last book read: Lullaby

last curse word uttered: shit probably

last beverage drank: Coffee and redbull

last food consumed: donuts!!!

last phone call: steph

last tv show watched: ummm prolly a sports show on espn

last shoes worn: Globe CT-3

last cd played: George Acosta: History of Trance

last item bought: coffe

last downloaded: um... constantly dling....

last disappointment: waking up this morning :D (doesnt that sound like i have a horrible outlook on life, but in actuality i was sleeping VERY peacefully)

last soda drank: mt DEW!!!

last thing handwritten: some thoughts...

last word spoken: have a nice day

last sleep: Last night

last weird encounter: seeing a friend from highschool i havnt seen in a while

last ice cream eaten: its' it (they are sooooo good)

last amused: last night, chillin with some buddies

last time trippin on drugs?: i wouldnt say trippin, more like rolling, a few weeks back at a party in auburn

last time in love: right now

last time hugged: last time i saw my girlfriend, a few weeks ago

last time scolded: i dont know, prolly my dad telling me to quit smoking

last chair sat in: right here at work, right now

last time lipstick used: umm, i dont wear lipstick. i wore some lipgloss that tasted GREAT, i was rolling of course.

last shirt worn: an old abercrombie shirt that i got for free

last poster looked at: my signed volvo/cannondale mt bike team poster


..:: :QUESTIONs: ::..

1. What do you most like about your body? my eyes i guess

2. And least? my feet

3. How many fillings do you have? none

4. Do you think you're good looking/beautiful? sure, i dont think im hot, but i am fairly confident about my body

..:: :FIRSTS: ::..

First job: excavation job in seattle

First screen name: cannondalemonk

First funeral: my moms

First pet: a cat, snaglepuss was his name, he was half lynx/half domestic cat

First piercing/tattoo: ear, in 3rd grade

First credit card: umm, screw credit cards

First one that mattered: umm as in person? im sure it was a family member when i was very young

First love: girl in highscool, when i was in 10th grade chrissy was her name

First enemy: hell if i know

First big trip: within the states, trip to michigan to see my mom. international, though not that big as i used to go there all the time... canada

First concert: Nirvana, back in the day

First kiss: um i dont remember back that far

First sexual encounter: when i was 14...

...well that was dumb

allo everybody!!! last few days have been a frenzy of basketball, watching, playing, watching, discussing, playing... good isht! i also learned of big brotha wanting to reenact drafting, which i am very much against... go and read, and better yourself and us as a nation...

ACT NOW!!!!(edit:ok im stupid, i have to find the right link...

been a few days since my last post... i am very excited as i have budgeted out my money. i just got sick of being broke for a few days before payday so now i will have money to spend all throughout the month as well as a savings. EL YAY!!! work has been, well, work. its not bad, but not fun at the same time. its been a while since i have had fun at work. its really starting to worry me as sometimes i am afraid i will get stuck in this daily grind. which horrifies me. oh well, i just need to get back to school and everything will be back on track. AND NOW FOR SOME CARS>>>>

This was a meet at Daikoku

ugh... i was late for work, again. thought i was supposed to be here at 12pm, but no like an idiot i was looking at yesterdays schedule. i was supposed to get here at 8:45am. its really frustrating especially since i have been trying really hard to get to work on time in the last 3-4 months... oh well life goes on i guess. wanna see a japanese car meet, WAY better than the meets we have here stateside... http://forums.vwvortex.com/zerothread?id=1364258

went to that party on sun night, it was a REALLY good party up until it was shut down at about 2am. Steph, was there which was nice. took care of me all night. Ryan went too, that was really cool. he is now, and i quote "a raver for life". hehe he was fucked up at that party. good shit. chris wilczewski went too which was really cool too, his girlfriend and swyen showed up also.

we bought some wine last night an got a schwilly... the '99 beringer we had was great, then we broke into the cheap ass diablo creek, thats when the fun began. it was pretty cool, wilczewski came over and hung out for a couple of hours. good times, steph scared the crap out of me with a txt message that read... "call me after work, i cant go to the party..." i called her and figured it out and now she is going. el yay!!!

last two days i have been fairly active. played the hardest game of basketball eVar!!! cleaned the house, saw steph (FINALLY!!!!!!!!!!) and now i am planning for a party on sunday...
Venue and Location :
- - -
- - -
SF Bay Area, California
Time :
May 30, 2004, Sunday, 10:00 PM
to
May 31, 2004, Monday, 05:00 AM
Description :
May 30th (Sunday) Shaolin Productions presents BubbleGum Fantasy - Memorial Day Weekend (no school or work on MONDAY) Shaolin will be using Sac's NEWEST venue (2 HUGE rooms)...the line up thus far: Dyloot, Denise, Dragn'fly, Scepter, Paul the Fanman, Cloudskipper, Tronic, Reckless Ryan, Frequency, Aleks, Havoc w/ Intalekt MC, Valerie Sparks, Sascha 23, The Doctor, Jay Vigor, Warren, Joe Bieker w/ MC Fader....10 more DJs will be added including the Headliner. This event will be ALL AGES and will go on until 5am. The Complete Lineup and flyer will be released soon...check into www.shaolinproductions.net or call 916.484.5610 for more info.
Contact Information :
http://www.shaolinproductions.net
916.484.5610

looks like its gonna be a fun party, i havnt been to one since Feb 14 (Vibe Technicians 2 in Reno, a GREAT party) i also FINALLY cleaned out my car, it has been a mess for some time. found a bunch of tokens for the local car wash, gonna hook my car up with a wash.

my feet hurt, i need to figure out someway to not make them hurt. not standing all day would normally be a good start but work gets in the way of that, i stand in front of this stupid computer all day long. ugh.

ha! today has been cool so far, woke up at the ass-crack of dawn and played some basketball. then got plenty of coffee in me for the day of work that is ahead of me.

yay!!! off work at a decent time!!! now to go play some basketball!

i will be changing my domain name as well as site host soon... i actually already have my account set up with the new host but i need to get to a computer with some type of ftp program (other than IE, as it is having some problems with the "nstemp" portion of my temporary domain name. blah time to go smoke a cigarette

wow... i havnt updated in quite some time!!! too much has gone on to list everything. Steph and i are still doing well, though we have been having some problems with getting to see each other. i dont think she will move down here for a while which is gonna cause some hardships... hopefully we'll be able to work through it. i have lost my domain name also (www.girsvoid.com) and i am not willing to pay to get it back. i'll create a new one someday.

((customer))"you're relying on logic too much." ((sales rep)) "what would you have me rely on, if not logic?"...stupid customers

well we moved into a new house at the beginning of february. its pretty cool, right down in the capitola village, more room, rent is cheap for the size of the house. i am paying $1400 for a 3 bedroom (2 bedroom really but the sunroom on the back of the house has been converted to a bedroom). ok im tired of typing, i will prolly tell more about the house later. time to go buy cheap pizza.

oh, yeah... update on the smoking thing.. i havn't quit yet. but just 2 days ago i promised my dad i would quit and i made stephanie promise she wouldn't kiss me until i quit. so i have until friday or sat. to quit smoking. bleh, i enjoy it so much. but i need to quit.

yay!!! my website is up again!!! i suck at the whole bill paying thing...

today is the eleventh day of january 2004... fun stuff eh? [rant on]does the general public think? do they REALLY believe that the large corporations of this great nation of ours really owe them something. i mean everything is spelled out CLEARLY in the contract. What do you mean you didn't know there was an Early Termination Fee. it shows that there is in at least 5 different places in the packet you recieved when you started service you stupid pathetic waste of human flesh...[/rant off]

ugh.. long time since my last post... my website is down, so nobody will be able to read this, oh well. grab bag and i got into a fist fight the other night. it kinda sucked, stupid reason really. but its all good now... drunken fighting is fun sometimes...

well Chrispy, Grab bag and i have stopped smoking...as of today, yesterday was our last day of smoking. so far so good, im sure it wont be that hard, though we'll see. time to go pick up grab bag from his parents place...

so chrispy and i have started to write our prospectus for our tea shop that we are planning on opening. the prospectus will give us direction and show investors we are serious. we are to have it roughed out by january 15th then we take it to jason to clean it up and make changes. we still have not thought of a name but we are working on it.

MERRY CHRISTMAS everyone!!! updated the site, got rid of the old homepage and just made my blog the basecamp...new buttons on the navbar. good stuff. so far my christmas has been a good one, we are cooking our christmas dinner right now, big fat steaks marinated with all kinds of goodness from the kitchen. some pictures of our christmas tree 'o' craziness....
i have also invited grab bag and chrispy to join in my bloggin adventures. :D

bla... i have been late to work the last 2 days. it sucks, today i slept through my alarm for an hour or so. i have to do something about this. it is pissing me off. i also have to figure out what is wrong with my blog archives. i cant get them to show up on girsvoid :(.

bwahahahaha! i went out and butchered a tree last night. chris and i went out into the forest and found a extremely odd looking cedar sapling and cut it down. we then proceeded to take it home and decorate it. insane decorations. pictures will be up soon....

bah. so last night i gave ride to a native american (not american indian, native american ((he corrected me))) his name was "two sniffs to the wind" and it really was "two sniffs to the wind" he told me about the meaning of life and many other things... good stuff. got some bud and an ounce of mushies... cant wait to partake.. anyways gotta go work and stuff :-/

"good god man! why is there fucking tape on the wall!?!" well steph came by yesterday. i only got to see her for an hour (i had to work and came home for my lucnh). it was all good though. its crazy i have never met a girl that has drawn me in like this before. i cant stop thinking about her. anyways... the house is mad clean now. chris and i have drawn up plans for an entertainment system that will be pretty cool and get all of our electronic crap looking nice. i cant wait to begin construction, its gonna be sooo nice.

so steph came over again this weekend, i was originally supposed to go to her house, then she called and said it was a bad time. then she tried to surprise me and come down on friday night. but on the way, her car broke down, and lacking a cell phone she was basically screwed. but some uber nice people came by and let her use their cell phone to call me and have me come pick her up (she was in pleasanton) they also used THEIR AAA to call a tow truck and even stayed with her while the tow truck was on its way. i got there about an hour later. the towtruck hadnt showed up yet so we waited. when the truck got there the good samaritans offered to have the car towed to their house since steph lives nowhere near pleasanton. those people that helped her out were WAAAY cool. i have never seen anything like it (them staying with her, which took about 2 hours for the tow truck to show up). im gonna send them a fruit basket or something... I took steph back home on sat night. got to her house at about 10:45 got back at 12:50. HA! 3-4 hour trip completed in 2 hours even though it was pouring rain pretty much the entire time i was driving... i love subaru's

so steph and jessica and their friend tanner came over for the weekend, it was fun we ended up mostly just hanging out in the house because all the roommates were (and still are) broke. we went to johns house which is REALLY cool, there is a crows nest type deck on top, about 15'X15' freakin sweet, and he has some turntables set up that he can turn up as loud as he wants because none of the neighbors complain.... it is sweet.. i don't know if steph and i are dating now or what... i think we are both just gonna see what happens with this relationship, that's what im doing right now. i don't want to make it too serious just because she lives kinda far away, and im REALLY sick of the long distance relationship thing right now.

so turkey-day went well, we started off the day by getting really drunk (this was at like 12am), then i fell asleep on top of grab bags car, fell off of it face first into the concrete. rode to the beach in the trunk, with my trusty beer in hand. then ran around in the ocean half naked.... good times. after we woke up at 1-2 pm i started the long arduous task of cleaning the house, which i am still doing right now. :(

went to the party on sat. night, it was really good other than all the club kids that were there... cloudskipper, again, was off the hook, as well as no left turn, he had a really good set too, i had to leave early because i had to work at 10 on sunday morning... this weekend steph is coming down and we are going to go to a party together, its soooo much fun to party with her. mainly because she is an old school raver... back in the days of whistle posse's.

this saturday there is gonna be a party 'o' madness!!! cloudskipper AND no left turn are gonna be spinning as well as an assload of other good dj's. it'll be great as this is the first time chris is gonna see cloudskipper spin! good times... ok, gotta go work now...

ok, so prozac is a good thing, tried one this morning, just for something to do, i have been on top of the world since!!! its crazy how good this shit is... it really is a wonder drug!

oh shit... i went to power puff girls costume ball, it was SICK!!! really good dj's really good venue, really good vibe, chris (parrish), grab bag, and chuck were there with me... it was sooooo awsome, dyloot dropped some ayutrance that tore the mother fucking roof off, then there was a set with molly mush vs valerie sparks that was just insane, they spun all the oldschool happycore anthems plus some of the newer shit. overall this party is up there with overload3, not as good as overload3 but pretty damned close. now i must go pick up dane from sacramento.... fun...

went to a party last night, it was good! Sasw steph there, we had some time to hang out after the party too. it was fun, now i need to go get ready for yet another party.... ooooh, this is gonna be fun!

GREAT SCOTT!!! I HAVE DSL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHAT A JOYOUS OCCASION!!

so i woke up this morning, got baked, cleaned the house, and then went to work... on the way to work i almost got t-boned by a minivan that blew a stop sign i was taking a left at... stupid minivan drivers... pissed me off so bad...

im going to a party this weekend! so stoked! i cant wait

i had a tire blow out on the freeway the other day, i knew something was up with the tire so i wasnt going fast or anything, luckily it blew out on a straight portion of the freeway. so now im driving around on the donut... car doesnt handle very well on one of those. i dont drive it but to and from work... argh, two more hours to go at work :(!!! time needs to go faster when i want it to!!!

i freakin HATE being sick!!! this sucks, i have a hacking cough that will not go away! on the bright side there is a party this saturday that cloudskipper is gonna be spinning at... good times... oh and i get my new dsl (the fast shit, not the slow ass wanna-be dsl i had before) on the 19th, soooo stoked...

so the halloween party i went to was great, i met stephanie (who i had met at Overload3 in the beginning of October). her and i hung out all night, then we went to an afterparty together (which was actually more of a afterparty chill out, we just hung out and watched tv). one problem is she lives in oroville (sp?), but she will be coming to santa cruz here pretty soon. i cant say enough about this girl. smart, funny, very chill girl, no drama... anyways i must get back to work. jya-ne!

yesterday was REALLY cool... there was a pro surf competition out in santa cruz, i hung out there all day, smoked some bud, there were soooooo many crazy hot women. insane stuff really, then to top off the most excellent day, i got about $30 worth of free bud... really cool. one bad thing happened though, big (my piece) was dropped and fell on a glass bowl on the ground and broke :( bad times, but i'll survive.

wow... Overload3 was off the fucking hook!!! i cant believe i had as much fun as i did, i would have to say the funnest time of my life was at overload3... i got home and my legs and shoes were coated with a THICK layer of dust. so they were no longer black they were light tan... i will throw up a pic later... anyways at work, waiting on hold with freeup customer care.. gotsta go!!

im sooooo stoked, overload3 is coming up!!! 2 more days!!!

god i am soooo tired, stayed up waaaaay too late last night....(10 min. later) i have creases in my face from laying my head down in the break room.. :( oh well, im off in 20 minutes

picked up my rental car today, my subaru had to go to the shop today to get work done on the rear, i was rearended some time ago (august 16 i think) and it is just now starting to get worked on... i got a ford focus, nice car, definitely impressed with ford more than i ever have been, car has NO power though, i feel soooo slow getting on the freeway, and that front wheel drive and automatic are killing me, oh well, its a car and it goes from a to b...

didnt get to visit uncle cid, of course it fell through.. oh well, had a nice time chillin with chuck talking about j-pop... i just realized a lot of namie amuro's latest stuff is done by some american dude out of atlanta, dallis austin.... good stuff ill have to look him up...

so im going to visit uncle cid tonight... going to be a fun time... yay

so, ive started smoking occasionally, not a lot, socially mostly... i have taken A LOT of flak from chris an company for this, but it is a phase that i will get sick of... mostly just do it when im stoned, it enhances the high... i know i wont do it for a long time, i cant stand the way i smell afterward...

i like tacos...

so i watched Cabin Fever last night, all i can say is that movie is MADNESS!!! it is now my definition of insanity.... good, but crazy.

people that lock thier cell phones are dumb

i like green tea, its the shiznit... gives me good health, has a little caffiene in it, good stuff really, there are practically no drawbacks to this wonderfull green stuff.. anyways back to work

so i was at my old job talking to this girl that i worked with, cute little latina chick, it was cool we caught up on old times, she talked about going to a rave with me, which is way cool... anyways, its too hard to type when im stoned so im going now...

so, i have actually been considering akiko's offer of moving to japan with her, i had to call her and apologize for getting mad at her... she called at a bad time, right before i had just yelled at another girl... ugh.. i dont know, moving to japan might be a good thing for me, its a change, i already know i LOVE it there, akiko is a GREAT girl... i would have to sell my car, no problem since i was considering it anyway. id have to sell alllllll my shit.... but hmmm.... i'll have to think about it. anyways...

hmmm... lots 'o' stuff happened in the past few days, i went to an AMAZING rave... better than sex i'd have to say... barely kept ahold of my apartment, and aparently lost a friend i never had... first off to all the people that made "that 70's party" happen... you guys rock, best rave ive been to in a looooooooong time.... DJ No Left Turn was amazing as well as Cloudskipper and Yagi... in reference to the losing a friend blurb, a good friend (or so i thought) only pretended to be my friend, for quite some time i might say, why? i havn't the foggiest of ideas, she wouldn't give me an answer other than "you've changed" WTF kind of lame ass shit is that... i feel like i got shit on, worst night in a looooooooooooong time... and to top it off, Akiko, who moved to japan permanently (i dont think i mentioned that before, she got a job there she really really likes, graphic design for a fashion magazine... anyways) asked me to drop everything i have here and move to japan with her... i was like WTF you want me to quite my life to live with you? she didnt like that at all, and i was already pissed because of the other girl i had just gotten done talking to (the one that is no longer a friend)... so we yelled at each other for a while... man what a shitty night. WHY CANT I FIND NORMAL WOMEN???

wow... if you have read my blog in the past i would imagine you know i am struggling to understand women... and failing miserablely. i was just told by my ex, kanako, who agreed to stay friends with me that she cant see me any longer because her boyfriend does not want us to see each other.. WHAT?!?! i dont get it... we were really good friends i think, and then she drops me because some dude (who doesnt know me because ive never met him) tells her to stop hanging out with me!?! thats bullshit if i ever heard it... what a friend man, i cant believe this! and on top of that i have to get $500 in 3 days to keep my apartment... fuck this sucks... i REALLY need to stop spending so much goddamned money.. on a good note, that 70's party is coming up on the 13th... i am soooooooooooooo stoked!!!

i hate my job sometimes

horrible... my cell phone died. thats bad considering i had allll kinds of peoples #'s in there that i have no other way of contacting them. argh i should have backed it up! anyways time to go pick up dane...

i hate customers who think we owe them something... ugh, the general public sucks ASS!!! argh, i could go off on people for hours, someday i will spit water in a customers face, clerks style! =D i have decided to go back to school next semester, good times. eventually i will get an edumacation, move to korea, and teach english...

girls, i think, will always confuse me... this girl i know, katie, great girl. funny, smart, charismatic. she always agrees to see me, then bails at the last moment. i dont get it. either she is interested in me and just has problems keeping plans, or she doesnt really want to hang out with me. the latter choice is prolly it... it doesnt really bother me that she doesnt want to hang out with me, fine, theres something about me that bothers her, whatever, sometimes it just doenst work out. but c'mon girl! tell it to my face, dont keep making plans and bailing. not cool... oh well, i gotta go

Ha! Akiko is still in japan... that sucks... that girl is fine! anyways, i just got back from camping with steve and chris, we actually didnt end up camping really, we got to the camp site and it was raining, like mad. we slept in the car that night, then the next day we got the great idea to go out to reno, since we were an hour away. it was cool, first we hit up the automobile museum, then we walked around for a while. then we went to this great brewery/restraunt. it was great! good beer good food. then we went and got a hotel room. After we got set up in the room, we went out to a comedy club for a show, it was really good i thought but chris and steve didnt like it so much.... after taht we went and ate at.. well i dont remembe, oh wait it was a little americana cafe, it was really good actually! We then retired to our rooms, chris crashed on one bed, steve and i on the other, it was a good night sleep, although i woke up twice and had rolled over towards steve... me not likey... the next day we went to Soutnh lake tahoe, watched a movie (the medalion), good movie. then we went out to hard rock cafe, where i got a little too drunk, not actually that bad, just a drink too many) and i was hit on by some 35 year old woman, she didnt look bad, a few more drinks and i prolly woulda hit it. afterwards we went out gambling, played some craps, good times. then we were headed home... good times, i should go camping more often =D

good music is key to a full life, i believe... i cant wait until my next really good party! i will be sooo happy!!!

i want a mazda rx-8, well i did, until i realized i was gonna lose $10,000 on my current car... then i also realized that my car is great, i dont need and rx-8. well anyways im tired, g'night!

oh goody! i get to spend $400 on a 30,000 mile checkup and my car is 14 months old!!! I'm excited, a party tonight!!! yay! maybe i'll call dane right now and see if i can help set anything up... that would be cool... right as i wait for my car to get done at the shop, i am browsing my friendster account... it's an interesting premise that friendster works on... oh oh, and im listening to radiohead... kick ass!!!

hey hey... its me again! just celebrating the fact that i have 2 whole days off ahead of me!!! so exciting!! anyways... time to go smoke a bowl, or two!!!

why are women constantly trying to piss me off? i dont understand... just got off the phone with my ex-girlfriend, i told her its too late to come over and pick up the rest of her shit, i have "people" coming over (some girls, but its none of her business) and she keeps questioning me "who's coming over" bla bla bla... i cant stand it anymore... i need to find a normal girl. maybe i'll meet someone at the next good rave, always good people at parties. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRGGGGGG women suck!

oh and more on that WONDERFUL party i went to 2 weeks ago. I cannot believe how good that party was, soooo many great people, great music, great everything... i just danced and danced alllll night long... good stuff!

mmm... i like killing time at work blogging...

ha.. my 21st was exciting... got sooo piss drunk i told one of my best friends girlfriends i would "hit it" repeatedly, meaning i would have sex with her given the chance. and all this was said right in front of said best friend steve.. :( but alas he saw that i was far beyond drunk and could do no harm, so he grabbed a camera to capture this wonderfull moment so i may remember it forever... bla..

ah yes and the rave i went to on sat. day night, holy shit... i have never felt so good in my life, being as i was on e and all... i cant wait until the next party... gonna be fun too!!

hummm.. so bored, so bored. but, its only a week until my 21st b-day.. the whole being 21 thing im not all that excited about, but.. i am finally going to a good rave, its been a looooong time since the last time i've been to a good rave! joy :D

oh and good news, i found a roomate who can move into my second bedroom... im stoked.. i dont have to move!!

I was following a riced out Civic northbound on 17 (he has his nice big 17's chrome of course on the front and stock steelies on the back) i am about 2-3 car lengths behind him... we are doing about 60-65 we just passed summit and we are hitting those 40mph right handers, the car in front of the civic moves into the #2 lane and the civic speeds up (trying to lose me as i could see him glancing at me in his rearview for several miles) he is going about 70 by now as he hits a dip in one of the right hand turns, his back end comes flying out and he shoots over into the #2 lane in front of an accord... the accord nails him as i slam on my brakes (god i love anti-lock brakes) he bounces off the accord and the outside retaining wall and comes rolling back into my lane, i pass in between him and the inside wall with inches in between us just barely making it... i pull off the road at the next turn off a few hundred feet down the road. i am sitting in my car a little shaky as i look into my rearview mirror i see the civic coming down the road...

im like WTF!! and i look back and sure enough its him... he passes me and i write down his license plate # (unfortunatly i missed 1 #).. i then call 911 and report everything that has happened, i then go up teh road to chekc on the guy in the accord, he's ok.. the cops come and they take my statment and i leave...

god am i lucky!!!

i sure do hope they catch the little punk in the civic...

a diagram...

went to a club last night... egad!!! no wonder i hate clubs... the music sucked, the people sucked, and the atmosphere sucked... good thing i got in for free! hmm.. ima go take a shower now... bubye!!!

ugh... this being sick crap is terrible... i hate not being able to go into work... especially since everyone there thinks i'm flaking because i don't want to go... 8*(

hmmm... been a while since i last posted... lotsa stuff has happened. i didn't mention before but kanako (my housemate) is moving out, so i had to find a new housemate. find one i did, however i cannot get ahold of him come near the end of the month when he will be moving in... so i may be in a bit of a bind for i have a $1100 rent payment and a $400 car payment coming up... he is supposed to pay $500 rent while i pay $600, and he is nowhere to be found!!! :( i'm screwed...

in other news i put a new rear swaybar on my car... i bought an adjustable sb from cusco, i have it set to the middle setting and it isnt as aggressive as i had once thought it would be... so i may be moving it to the hardest setting here in a bit to see what that does to the handling of the car...

so far the modlist goes something like this...

cusco front strut tower bar-- quicker handling but it made the car understeer a bit, to be resolved later

rota 17" black subzero wheels with polished lip-- made the car handle amazingly, but there was still a bit of understeer from that strut tower bar

cusco rear strut tower bar and v-brace-- beautiful craftsmanship from cusco, mostly solves the understeer problem, back end comes around a bit quicker now

cusco 22mm adjustable rear swaybar-- ahh, very nice, painted in a thick coat of cusco blue, no more understeer what-so-ever, now the car oversteers a bit... i am liking this a bit but realize this could be a problem when it starts to rain, also in the end i want my car to be somewhat nuetral in handling, this wull be delt with at a later time with a cusco (most likely) 21 mm front swaybar

the next investment in my car shall be a new exhaust system... as of yet i have decided on the scoobysport exhaust... gonna cost me around $1200 to purchase, then after that i may get some lighter pullies, then larger brakes, then a ECU reflash from cobb tuning... so much to do to the car, so little money to do it with... :(

mmm... sick at the moment, figured out what ima do on my b-day... im finally going to be going back to a party.... its been a loooong time... it should be fun, i just have to get the 20th off of work... :( 'tis the hardpart

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HARD CANDY by Evolution Entertainment
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Our VISION exposed you to the true vibe, now follow us to a sugar coated world like no other. A virgin location, smothered in visuals and swirling in 10 hours of mouth watering beats awaits you down Sugar Lane.

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MORGAN (djmorgan.com, Lotek Records – SF),

HAPPY KID MARTY (Happy Kids),

CLOUDSKIPPER (Liquid Vinyl Dj’s),

VALERIE SPARKS (Resistance Recordings),

TRONIC (Resistance Recordings, liquidvinyldjs),

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SECOND BASE (Evolution Entertainment),

KARAGEN (Evolution Entertainment),

DR SMILE (Evolution Entertainment),

MOLLYMUSH (Hardcore For The People),

YAGI (Hardcore For The People),

BDUBS (Sykotix, SOE) vs Exotic (Hypertension),

INFUSION (Fab 5, Hardsound),

JOHNNY APPLESEED (Sykotix),

DAVE NELSON (Doublestacked),

BUDGIE (Ireland),

KRITIKAL MASS, and

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We don’t just make parties, we create VIBES. www.evolutionentertainment.org Two main rooms, plus a chill room, and an outdoor smoking area. 8pm-6am ALL AGES Infoline (408) 682 3592 ONLY 10 BUCKS if you arrive before 9:30pm!!


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Starting on: 07-19-2003 08:00:PM
Ending on: 07-20-2003 06:00:AM


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i am now showing kristin p. how a web log works!!! wee isnt this fun...

just went and saw the movie finding nemo it was pretty good i must say... i would have to say it would make a great first date movie... though i shouldnt say that because i went and saw it with two other guys.. eh, yeah... so anyway... i must sleep now... g'nite!

why does it seem, no matter how hard i try, i cant find a normal girl? maybe im just too picky, or maybe im subconsciously attracted to girls with issues... argh...

i like people in general, except when they become consumers, then they turn into assholes... why dont americans read contracts, they could sign thier lives away for all they know... eh... people are dumb

you ever not want to go to sleep? i do... and it sucks, 'cause i have to be at work early in the morning...

still working on the template... too much white in it for now... oh well, lifes a bitch

i think im gonna use this blog as my new homepage.. funstuff eh?

eh... back from vacation... time for some sucktastic fun...